Keep Moving !

Well it didn’t take long before I had to come back and unload… I once heard a conspiracy that we are being played like a game of chess, well if that was the case I must be a pawn !


This weekend I have had my boys, great to ! I picked them up from nursery and we had the best weekend I dropped them back a while a go I love spending time with them. I miss them so much a little scared that they will resent me or forget me I know they wont but it hurts, my dad left me when I was 8 and to tell you the truth it hurt and only looking back now my dad could do no wrong in my eyes after everything he did to my mam! It was the love for him that I had.

I once remember running home from school so proud that I actually beat the bully up to find he had left that hurt, there was times when he wouldn’t turn up and I would be sat waiting at the top of the garden with my bag so excited to see him!

I was bullied in school and I think that if my dad was living with me that would have been a different case, I wasn’t always bullied I changed that myself.

I have promised to myself that my boys will be the focal point of my life and will come before anyone! Even thou I do not live with them I will always be there in just one phone call every other weekend and as they get bigger and I get more settled every weekend.

See I miss them so much their little face’s and the way the laugh at their silly dad and the excitement in their eyes when I pick them up, how could any farther let them down ? I never could.. and now I am having a child with someone I hardly know, I just hope that this child will have as much love as I give them !

The girl I mentioned in my last blog well for some reason and considering how keen she is this is quite crazy, she hasn’t replied to two of my texts this weekend. I have only sent the two she hasn’t phoned or text so it is really weird as its not like her to be so quiet,

The reason for her being so quiet was that her ex seen my number on her phone and threw it at the wall, funny isn’t it how life does a full circle at times , I was that man a few months ago hurt rejected and insulted that some other man can take my place in her life and have the ordasity to show you up and make her happy !

Well the difference between him and me is that I didn’t do half the things he has done to her, infact the exact opposite I was shit on and then shit on again the only thing that got me through those hard times was friends, time and music.

I am very a much music person I love it I would call myself and eclectic I love all music, mostly indie especially acoustic.

You know the saying when your waiting for a bus it doesn’t come but when your on a bus 20 come well that is exactly were I am right now……….

I will explain all soon.. until then goodnight god bless

Batchelor Diaries !